I wanna make kwento that Alvin and I almost reached our end point yesterday because of our frustration with each other. How his parents made sugod to our house to convince us to work things out. How Alvin's dad, who never ever shows emotion, kissed my forehead and told me to promise him that this will not happen again because it makes him really sad. How my mom threatened to pull out the large chunk of investment she has for Anika's future use in the bank and "make it waldas sa shopping" if we separated.
I wanna make kwento how I wish I could stay home and take care of Anika until she gets well. I wanna make kwento how frustrated I am that Anika runs after Girlie instead of me while snot is running down her tiny nose. I wanna make kwento how Alvin and I talked again to make it right this time. Fresh start daw. Ulit.
But deep, deep inside me, iba talaga ang gusto kong ikwento sa inyo. It takes all my breeding not to do it now. In time I will share I promise.
I'll be back to regular programming in 3... 2... 1...
GOW! =)
Fleur, everything will be fine. I know how you feel! Pero malalampasin nyo din yan. Hugggsss! :)
ReplyDeletemare don't give up...be strong...magiging ok din ang lahat...minsan yung mga imperfections sa relationships natin or ng partners natin kelangan talaga nating iaccept kahit mahirap...for the sake of love mare...mahal mo si alvin...ganun talaga...pero syempre dapat maintindihan din ni alvin ung mga points mo..maganda naman ang foundation nyo ni alvin db...nakakalungkot pero kng iisipin m naman yung mga pinagdaanan nyo n, kung panu nyo yun nresolve, isipin m n lang din n maayos nyo din to...kaya mo yan mare...
ReplyDeleteabout anika naman, masyado lang sya nasanay ke girlie...sanayin m sya n mas masanay syo...kits
Hi fleur. I'm an avid reader of your blog that i have to read it everyday before working.:D
ReplyDeleteDon't be sad na. I know everything will be alright. Don't just give up on anything, especially yung relationship mo with your hubby. Normal lang yang frustations, but please, don't let it affect both of you. All the best for you fleur :D
mommy fleur, i don't know you personally but i want you to know that i feel for you... nung bagong kasal din ako, there were so many times i felt i couldn't understand my husband. we would have our petty fights and arguments. but let me tell you, as long as there is love between you and alvin and a commitment to the family, this will always override whatever temporary struggles you are facing. i may not know the both of you but i can see how much alvin cares and loves you. so, don't give up! as the years go by you will learn to appreciate each other more, bear with each other's faults, and know when it's time to stay silent. sa start lang ito kasi you're still in the adjustment period.
ReplyDeletemahirap maging mommy, oo. you will face more challenges with anika as she grows older. wait until she gains a mind of her own and learns how to argue with you. but i think God gives every one of us mothers a unique kind of resilience and strength to deal with such kind of struggles. that's why we're mothers, calling natin yan eh. God will not give us something we can't handle. you seem to be a very determined and committed mother to anika, so i know you will surely be able to cope with all this.
and yes, being a working mom away from anika can really be a pain in the neck. i know, i've experienced that too. isipin mo nalang na aside from the financial security you're contributing to the family, you're also saving yourself a lot of stress by not having to argue with alvin about money. i have housewife-friends who are always arguing with their husbands about money because they want to buy certain things their husbands don't want to pay for. so iyon, at least financially independent ka. sa time, kaya mong bumawi after work and weekends. it IS possible. and don't worry about her preferring the yaya over you. ako nga, full time stay at home mom na, my bunso is still super dikit sa yaya. as in humahagulgol pa yan pag nag day-off si yaya. i never let it bother me though, iniisip ko nalang na at least sign yan that my yaya genuinely cares for my daughter. hindi niya minamaltrato. and that my daughter has space in her heart for many people, not only me and her daddy =)
ang haba na pala ng nobela ko. just wanted to let you know "i've been there, and i'm telling you na kaya mo yan." btw, i strongly urge you to buy the books "power of a praying wife" and "power of a praying parent" by stormie omartian. those books helped me tremendously as a wife and mom. whatever happens, God will never ever forsake you! take care!
hi I love your blog. Got inspired by your posts to do an OTD blog as well. Same sentiments on the nanny, my daughter ayaw na tumabi sa kin matulog, ganon yata talaga sacrifices for a working mom.
ReplyDeletehi ms. fleur... i want to hug you... ~hugs~
ReplyDeletei'll pray that everything will be alright soon between you and alvin... and that anika will get better the soonest!
stay strong! keep the faith! God bless you & your beautiful family... ♥
gurl.. you are better than that... bakla..matatapos din ang mga eksenang ganyan...whatever it is you are going through, i don't know. Just make sure kung anumang choice or decision that you may come up with...choose a decision na alam mong kaya mong i-face ang mga consequences. Nangialam na ako diba?? sorry naman teh... Well, deadma na muna sa mga kontrobersya, kontrobersya talaga?... deadmatology is the key to success! magpalamig ka muna, never make a decision just yet...saka na pag kalmado ka na. Bawasan ang kape teh!.. HUGS!
ReplyDeletehi fleur! i've been missing-in-action for the past 2 weeks that i only got to read this now. mare, i hope you and alvin are okay na. sometimes these things happen. but when you hit rock bottom....the only way to go is up. i'm sure you guys can work it out. i'll keep my eyes peeled for your kwento. hang-in-there girl. if you wanna extend our meet-up last time for coffee or something, you have my number. :)
ReplyDeleteMommy Fleur, eto lang, simple lang ang sasabihin ko sayo... "Never make a decision at the height of your passion."
ReplyDeleteGodbless, Mommy. In time everything will turn out alright.
Back reading all your posts since you got married! as in from The First Ever Entry. I'm a mom of 10 months old baby girl and I'm so inspired by all of your posts! as in aliw! buti hindi sya blocked dito sa office. and now dito na ko sa entry na to and I'm decided to finish it all up hanggang sa recent one :D baligtad ata utak ko talaga, laging sa dulo ako nagsisimula sa mga list, pero sa blog tama lang din naman na mauna ang olders, 2011 pa lang ako at grabe almost 700 posts sa 2012! hihi di ako susuko :P super worth it ang time ng pagbabasa :P anyways, back to this entry that made me post a comment, nakakaiyak! ayun lang po... Keep it up Mommy Fleur! I'm a fan!
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