The Tale of the Pants

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I came to the office today looking like Garfield. I have puffy eyes. This is what I get falling alseep while crying last night. Nothing really major and some of you might even think that it's mababaw. Nevertheless, I'm going to make kwento...

Having a family plus a (very matakaw but cute) baby, requires me and Alvin to have a monthly budget. This means, Anika's milk, diapers, needs, house expenses come first before my wardrobe needs. To keep up with fashion, I shopped na lang nowadays sa mga cheap stores like SM and tiangges (versus you know, Mango, Top Shop, Zara etc). Shopping means like once a month, kung swerte ka. At first it was okay kasi it served as a challenge for me to look nice on a budget. Fashionable in a thrifty way ang drama ko.

However, yesterday, after grocery shopping with Alvin, I felt something rip sa crotch area of my office pants. Parang lumamig ang feeling down there. Nung kinapa ko, na-wakwak pala ang aking cheap pants!!! When I say wakwak, and in major punit talaga for the whole world to see! It was so embarrassing that I cried! I cried there, I cried all the way home and I cried till I fell asleep. Nagself pity ako.

Not to brag but me and my brothers have lived a pretty comfortable life. Our parents were seldom there but we were given pretty much what we wanted. In short, hindi kami sanay sa hirap. Me particularly, I am used to have whatever I like. Either I spend from what I earn (which is akin lang talaga) or I ask from either parent if it's expensive na. I shopped every single day. In short, gastoserang frog ako and dun talaga ako nasanay.

And then came family life. Anika's milk, diapers, things, household expenses, all came first na before my wardrobe needs. So to compensate nga, sa mura na lang ako bumibili.

I cried last night because naawa ako sa sarili ko. I used to own nice & expensive things but now I can't buy them anymore (well, except for my Louis Vuitton bag which we bought AGES ago). I cried because I didn't mean to but I know Alvin felt bad. Maybe because he thinks he's not providing well for me (which is the total opposite! I know he tries his hardest to give me and Anika what we need and want). Alvin and I aren't speaking to each other since last night. I didn't want to talk to him because I don't know what to say. Ewan ko naman kung bakit ayaw akong kausapin ng frog na yun.

I just need talaga siguro to get used to this. That or kumayod kami ng bonggang bongga so we can still have our luho.

Napatawa lang ako ng Girlie for two seconds:

GIRLIE: O Ate! Bakit ka umiiyak?!

ME: Nawakwak kasi pantalon ko. O!

GIRLIE: Umiiyak ka kasi nasira pantalon mo?!

ME: Eh nasira eh!!

GIRLIE: Ay ang laki nga! Umiiyak ka kasi madami nakakita?!

ME: Di naman masyado..

GIRLIE: E bakit ka nga po umiiyak?!

Amp! Ang kulit!!!!