What Destiny Is To Me

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Again, from the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert, I picked up something about DESTINY that struck me and I'd like to share it to you:

"Destiny, I feel, is also a relationship - a play between divine grace and willful self-effort. Half of it you have no control over; half of it is absolutely in your hands, and your actions will show measurable consequences. Man is neither entirely a puppet of the gods, nor is he entirely the captain of his own destiny; he is a little of both. We gallop through our lives like circus performers balancing on two speeding side-by-side horses -one foot is on the the forse called "fate", the other on the horse called "free will". And the question you have to ask everyday is, Which horse is which? Which horse do I need to stop worrying about because it's not under my control, and which do I need to steer with concentrated effort?"

It touched me because I keep on telling people that it was DESTINY that brought me and Alvin together after all these years of what-nots. What people do not know is that Destiny only gave us a push, the right circumstances and opportunities for us to realize that we were meant to be together. What people truly did not know is that "kinareer ko talaga ang Alvin!"

Oh yes. I had to. You see, Alvin is a sigurista. There was this instance that happened way back when we were still young that made him jaded about me. It was a misunderstanding, him assuming and with me not explaining it to him the right way. After that, yea, he'd still make pa-cute, and keep on asking me out on our secret dates, but i felt that he had already decided against putting himself out there for me and everyone to see. Todo pakipot na talaga.

So I felt it was all up to me to prove that I am the right girl for him. Destiny gave us openings but I also did some work. When we both found out that we were not seeing other people already, I made kamusta constantly (read: texting goodmorning, goodnight and the "don't forget to eat ha?" messages). I prayed hard. I shopped a lot for tight jeans and sandos to wear whenever we're together (his favorite outfit on girls). It even went to a point na I was already asking him, "Ano ba? Bakit hindi pa maging tayo kasi?!" Thankfully, during one of our conversations in one of our out of town trips, naka-realize naman ang lolo niyo. Then ako naman ang nagpakipot. Choz!

No, I'm not embarrased to let people know about it (although, ikukwento ko lang kay Pepita ito pag mga 25 na siya, baka bata pa e mangarir na, katakot!). Kung walang tiyaga, walang nilaga. Kung tumunganga lang ako dati, sa malamang hindi pa din kami hanggang ngayon. In everything that we do, I believe DESTINY will give you that push or opportunity but it will be up to you if you are going to do something about it to make things happen.

Pagdating sa love, wag lang medyo stalker level na ha? Yung tama lang.